my day has been going very well. im madd tired though, i hate that im always soo tired its so aggravating. people always tell me to go to bed earlier and i do go to bed early i just can never sleep. sometimes it gets so bad that i cant stay awake at all. so i dont know i hope eventually this will change;cause its been like this for a long time. maine is just so aggravating,i dont know what it is that gets me soo mad that im here. i feel like i should be happy that im out of programs and hospitals but sometimes i feel like this isnt reality i dont know how to explain it..like im dreaming or something.. i dont know its weird so yeah....

my day is going very well, even though i did not want to get up this morning. This kid that always follows me around stopped, haha he came into my lunch acting like he was lookin for another girl then left....i thought it was hilarious!!!he finally got the hint that i dont like him. hes cute and all but not for me. it funny how he thinks that him telling me that hes looking for a girl is going to make me mad or jealous cause i never felt like that for him. so i dont know who hes trying to hurt...but anyways,,i cant wait for this summer cause imma be going to see all my friends in massachussets and im stoked about that!!!i cant stand it here in maine anymore.alot of the people make me very angry..but im trying not to let that kind of stuff get to me so yeah,,thats whats on my mind...


adios mi amigos!! te amo

lifee

lately i've been really stressed out with my new foster home.it's very aggravating!!! i don't like to be in an angry or cranky mood because that's not how i am. im usually trying to be happy and to live life to the fullest,since i've been here i've felt very depressed. I'm really trying to turn my life around for the better. i just wish i was in massachussets, i really really don't like maine....it's very country and ALOT of trees and white people. i like the city better,,im a city girl i like to be out walking where ever i need to go and seeing diversity. but you know you can't have everything you want in this world,im thankful for what i have. never in my life did i think my life would be this way,,you think to yourself when your younger that your going to have the perfect life and nothing bad could ever happen to you. always dreamiing about being a fairy or being a millionaire,never had a care in the world untill just ONE day changes you life forever; and there's no goin back now. you can only move forward at least thats were im planning to go.

AGGRAVATED!!

im very frustrated today. this teacher was giving me lip for no reason. she was saying how i should have known what to do and all of this stuff when she didn't even tell me what to do in the first place. so as she was telling me how stupid of me it was to have not used common sence i was about to slap this lady right across the face. but luckily i know how to manage my feelings better so i don't act in the moment cause that's gotten me in trouble in the past. im trying to change my ways so i can go somewhere in my life and show all the people that said i wasn't going to be anything. to me the best revenge is living well...but im glad that im not aroud thise people anymore. They were bad people for me to be around. if i didn't speak up about what was going on with my dad and my mom then i don't think i would be the person i am today. i probably would still be severly depressed.

adios mi amigos te amo

I just wathched a news video. It was called"what would you do" the video topic was a stranger trying to get a child to go with them. Most people said something when they noticed the guy that was asking the little girl to help him find his dog.I found this scary because eventually he got her to go with him.I feel that parents and schools need to let the kids know what is wrong and right. The kids that they are trying to take usually don't know what to do or say. This issue really needs to be addresed more. Predators just discust me and I don't see how they can live with their selves knowing how badly they've ruined their lives.

I really don't want to be in Maine anymore! i hate it here, i want to be back in Massachusetts. There's nothing to do here; it's all trees! Everywhere i look i see tress and it's so aggravating. Lately i've been feeling very sad cause i want to see my friends back in Massachusetts. I don't like school, it's very stressful for me; but im trying really hard not to mess up being back in public school. I've been working hard to finally get back in public school.